| Broken and finally used up |
[May. 2nd, 2009|10:22 pm] |
Well thats it. I have finally come to a point that i neither care or want to care anymore. I guess this is a "oh poor me" post. But i no longer care.
I have screwed myself over so many times , it is all coming to a head in the last few days. I quit my job 2 weeks ago. and spent all the money on crap i did not need, defaulted on 3 payday loan places that will screw over any pay i would get from a job, if i could find one. I did not pay for my rent this month. so an eviction notice is close behind. I owe over 30 grand in debts due to bad judgement and interest as i never paid what i should have, I have 0 credit, no friends, no family, at least none i have talked to in almost 2 years..
What i need is help. not finantial help. but help. help from my suicidal tendncies, help getting my credit back help in paying off my debt, help in starting my life new.
I want to be able to put everything i own into storage. exept my bike and meybe my computer and start from 0 pay all my debts while losing weight on my bike and eating right. find an affordable place to live small is ok.
i guess i need someone to show me the proper way.
I am not looking for sympathy or money or anything else. but if anyone can help in anyway i will happily take their advise. |
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| In need of a little bit of help |
[Aug. 16th, 2008|05:36 pm] |
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As of The first of september I have to be out of my current residence.
I will be only 550.00 dollars short of making rent and deposit in a new apartment.
I could easily move out and pay my share of the rent if I was allowed to stay till the 15th, and am fully and happily willing to pay a full months rent and 100.00 from each of my roomates share as well if allowed to stay till october 1st.
Alas due to reasons of their own I guess, they do not want me to stay longer. So if anyone is able to help please let me know.. I can fully pay anyone back by no later then october 2nd..
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| selling my PSP |
[Aug. 5th, 2008|03:58 am] |
I am selling my Hacked PSP. ((MAKE ME A SERIOUS OFFER))
It comes with the following:
PSP phat (original) Latest hacked firmware, no dead pixels, Clean and scratch free, has a screen protector, original box and manuals.
Batteries - Comes with the original Battery and a sony extended battery. As well as a charger.
Memory - It comes with a new 8 Gig card and a 4 gig card.
Extra's - Comes with an Intec leather carry case, USB transfer cable and the psp wired remote.
Games - Final Fantasy 7: Crisis Core UMD ..
ISO's Or ripped games: Most tested with this firmware. Comes on DVD's Will show any buyer how to put them on psp.
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| update |
[Feb. 4th, 2008|05:22 pm] |
I rarely update in this journal. I feel it it is not a very professional setting. So I have made a new journal that will go into my professional workings and keep personal anything out. A place you can go and see what I have planned. what I have to learn and what is involved.
please join my adventure over at FireSkunk Productions = fs_productions
all personal stuff I will keep here, not that there is much thats shared, and all pro stuff over there.. and I have a lot planned for the next few years.
BlackFire |
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| new server from used parts |
[Jul. 16th, 2007|06:52 am] |
Here is our new file server from used parts. :) STATS: P3 - 550 mhz, 280 megs ram, 3 raid cards, 8 meg agp card, 2 powersupplies wired into a rail, hand made case.
HD's: top 2 are mirrored 40 gig drives, next 2-(one missing) mirrored 4 gig, next 3- 4 gig mirrored(one missing), next 3 4 gig mirrored and a removeable bay with 4 gig hd for operating system. space on bottom for a dvd burner or HD burner for backup
max handling: P3 800mhz, 1.5 gig ram, and up to 11 hd's mirrored or singular so 10 1 TeraByte drives = 5 TB mirrored or 10 TB singular with a TB drive as op system drive- or higher.
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| UPDATE already! |
[May. 15th, 2007|07:42 am] |
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*****I will not be attending this party. but i am leaving it going for all those who want to attend. Please talk to Ssithl for any updates. due to me not attending. meybe the party will fill up.***
FURS ALREADY COMING: Some are tentitive. a final list will be posted 2 weeks before the party. all those on the list will then get an e-mail with directions to the party. noone thats not on the list will receive directions to my house. party crashing is a nono. 1. Vera 2. Ssithl - Fursuiter 3. 4. Sly - Fox - UK fur in for a visit 5. Nevermind - Dragonbat, Southern alberta 6. Shinisuryu - Dragon, Visiting from Oregon 7. Ice_Wolf 8. Wolphin 9. Lost Wolf - Fursuit? 10. Dark Wolf 11. Johara - Fursuiter 12. Greyfang -Fursuiter 13. Gamba -Fursuiter 14. Taraq 15. Matt_Panther 16. Drake 17. Qualin 18. Kimmerset 19. Acru 20. Nova Caine 21. Mage 22. 23. 24..... 30..... STUFF BEING BROUGHT
A lot of people are bringing hard alcohol. but very few bringing food. remember. I will not be providing all the food. very little. so food is a must! -Burgers, Chicken, Steaks, Hotdogs+smokies, Taco salad, potato salad, Beer, Vodka,Deli plate,Gravy Noodles, STUFF NEEDED -Salads, always more meat products, buns+breads, deserts, snackfoods chips+dip candy , cheese and meat for nibblings, marshmallows as we have a working firepit, lawnchairs we only have 4, games and game consoles, Coolers to hold ice and drinks, small stereo - or just speakers. BRING FURSUITS!! pics will be taken. the more the merrier. industrial cooling fan is provided for cooling. as well as a changeing area remember. this party starts at 10 am on the 23rd. we then have lunch for those who show up early. then supper where the food really flows around 7 pm. then lunch on the 24th. so feel free to bring lots! Please RSVP and let me know what you are going to bring at this addy - blackfire@telusmail.net SPOTS ARE FILLING FASTER THEN EXPECTED |
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| FURRY HOUSE PARTY AND BBQ!!! |
[May. 14th, 2007|08:07 am] |
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Letting all furs know of a party I am planning fo the weekend of June 23rd and 24th. It is a 2 DAY house party and foodfest. I will be providing hotdogs and steak and chicken all bbq'd or cooked on the backyard firepit. And i will be providing beverages. some beer coke and pepsi and stuff. However we need more food and drinks for the 2 day event.. we want lots! We have a large place with lot's of room, including a 32 inch gaming tv upstairs. And a 90 inch projection screen in basement, which is linked to our file server suppling over 500 movies and 2 tb's of tv shows.
We are expecting a full turn out of our capacity of 30-35 furs so pleas e-mail me to reserve a spot.
PLEASE bring food, drinks, lawnchairs, pillows, blankets, if staying overnight, and game consols and games since we don't have any. also feel free to bring any movies you want to watch or music you want to listen too.
This party is open to ALL furs. whether we get along or not. this is a fun time and not drama so all are welcome!
This party will have drinking. socially in the earlier hours and more if anyone wants to later in the evening. You do not have to drink, just some enjoy a beer. If you are young. you will be carded. we live behind a police station. and last thing we need is them poping over to give breath tests to minors:P
things needed for a better time: -lawn chairs. for inside and out -food. the more the better as this is a 2 day event. from morning of the 23rd till whenever on the 24th -drink, any kind from soda to alcohol -coolers for the drinks -game consoles and games. Wii owners. proper secure handstraps are a requirement. i don't want a broken tv -movies and or music. a small stereo for upstairs is nice.. or just speakers for an existing one -blankets, pillows -fursuits, as this is a fursuit friendly house -a sence of goodwill and no animosity. i will have none
FURS ALREADY COMING: 1. Vera - dragon, house resident 2. Ssithl - sexy versi bat, house resident 3. Blackfire - Skunk, house resident 4. Sly - Fox - UK fur in for a visit 5. Nevermind - Dragonbat, Southern alberta 6. Shinisuryu - Dragon, Visiting from Oregon
Please RSVP and let me know what you are going to bring at this addy - blackfire @ telusmail . net
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| New Auction! Limited Time |
[Nov. 12th, 2006|02:57 am] |
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New auction!! I really need to pay bills this month. And since I finished a comission early. I am offering 2 yes 2 comissions spots to be done before AC! Limited time for this auction as it is a lower price then my normal price. Yet you get full price benifits. Look here for the auction. And happy bidding!! All suits need to be paid 1/2 up front for materials, rest on completion. I do take payments for the second half.
http://www.furbid.ws/cgi-bin/auction/item.pl?item=23883
Any questions pleas e-mail me @ fox_73@hotmail.com or blackfire@telusmail.net icq 35300307
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| lightly annoyed. |
[Sep. 27th, 2006|10:10 pm] |
I find it a little annoying that people don't say they will do what they said.
A few weeks back i was saying how I won't have money for my mates b-day present.. , which is today BTW, And an artist said they will do a drawing for me and him. so took info and all that and said they would see me later.I kept talking to them all the time. not mentioning something i was getting for free. I am not one to put others down or push for something. But of course it did not come. and i was told, with out me asking, that the pic will not be done cause of someone elses problems with me ignoring them.
Whatever. here it is my husbands 26th b-day and i have nothing. I was not expecting nor am I expecting anything. But sheesh. if you offer to do something out of kindness. at least follow through. I even offered to pay and they refused.. Sigh.
Is there any trustworthy people out there anymore? people that keep their word?
My mate was very and is very depressed. the pic i was hoping would bring him a little happiness from our situation. |
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| fat. moving. various. |
[Sep. 10th, 2006|09:15 am] |
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so just over 2 weeks and a few day's i have to move into a new place. i really don't want to move. i am just now comfortable in this place.
however my happiness does not matter. i am only here to make my mate and love of my life happy. i have been doing a piss poor job of that lately not doing what i have to do to make him comfortable and worry free.
he has to have people. furs around him to be happier. and thats whay i am doing this move. i am doing it all for him. i am a lone skunk. and as long as i have my place in a corner then i am fine. if my mate is happy then i am.
packing and moving is proving to be harder then i thought. i am so out of shape i can't do much with out severe back pain and fainting spells.
as soon as i get a job. i have to start walking more. and going to the gym. cause i doubt i will be alive for too long if i keep doing nothing. my weight has gone up from a stable 260 i had for several years to over 320. i am always tired. i look fat and ugly, i can't do anything. i'm not flexible anymore.. and even room temp at 21 degrees feels like the hottest pit of hell to me. i am constantly miserable and i have no motivation or will power to do anything but go to the store and buy steaks and pop.
i need help. and there is noone to help. |
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| Raise in prices |
[Sep. 9th, 2006|07:47 am] |
Because it seems some makers just starting out are charging more then i am for custom made suits, I am raising my prices. suits start at 1500.00 U.S. for a basic custom suit. and up.
I am now offering basic animetronic implements. and will discuss complex systems. and full led and electro luminescence factors. added to an existing suit or integrated in a new custom suit. prices will vary depending on complexity.
I still do not offer wigs and i rarely do simulated headfur using fur. however i can if your insistant :)
Digitgrade legs can be done. =padded look only= however i outsource this item and am bound by paying their prices.
I have 1 comission spot open. completion time is AC 2007 I do take payments. |
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| Car for sale |
[May. 19th, 2006|01:58 am] |
the following is my car. the following car is for sale.
stats: 1.5 liter sohc alpha engine 5 speed manual transmission silverghost paint outside. and grey interior everything is pretty much stock. exept i cleared the front corners, and added a sony xplode mp3 cd deck.
price asking is 9800.00
windsheild will be replaced. interior and exterior fully detailed and cleaned,new mats.
selling cause i want to buy out my loan agreement to improve my credit. and have a deposit on a Tiburon.
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| somewhat desperate |
[May. 11th, 2006|02:02 am] |
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| | distressed | ] | Well. after working my ass off these last 2 weeks trying to come up with all the money needed for lawyer and all immigration forms. well i find i am still 700 dollars or so short.
marrige fee's: 200.00 car loan and insurance : 470.00 lawyer fee this month 680.00 immigration application fee : 550.00 extended visitors visa application fee : 75.00 medical and visa pictures fee: 175.00
total: 1992.00 owing...
all this in 2 weeks from last big bunch of bills i just managed to pay.. i have 1010.00 now and a few day's of work left. leaving an estimated 700 owing..
now a request. I hate to ask. but i am not asking for myself. i am asking for my bat. my love. i don't want him to be taken away from me and shipped over seas. so i have to find a way to come up with the last of this fee..
so i am offering for if someone could LEND me the money i need.. i will not only pay them back. i will also make them a full fursuit. anything wanted. i will communicate every opertunity. work with you. and get what you want. AND you will get all the money back plus 200 dollars interest. i am that desperate.
suit done by january 1st at latest. money paid back asap.
so if anyone is kind enough to help me. and help Sithl please let me know
fox_73@hotmail.com blackfire@telusmail.net
hoping. but with little hope.
BlackFire |
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| Con - Version |
[Apr. 2nd, 2006|01:54 pm] |
Well the dance for Con - Version 21.5 has finished. and 5 suiters and over 12 furries attended. always nice that a con is begging furries to join and show up and do panels and such.
Had a great time suiting with my red skunk. and ssithl in his gopher. and silver with her newly made lioness suit.
YAY! i won second place in best made costumes! was totally unexpected cause i did not even know there was a costume contest to begin with. my prize was a fully paid membership to Con - Version 22 in August here in calgary. However i gave my registration to Silver. cause i thought she could use it more then me.
anyway thats all for this post. |
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| comission spot filled |
[Mar. 29th, 2006|05:53 am] |
thanks for all those that were interested in getting a suit. i am now closed for comission till this one is finished. pics of the black squirrel with silver hilights will be seen here on my live journal.
BF |
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| Offering up a comission spot |
[Mar. 22nd, 2006|07:45 am] |
Well I am finally ready to open up a comission spot for fursuits.
I am currently not working on any projects and have spare time free to work on one suit, partial, or any part thereof.
I have reveiwed past complaints and problems with the 20 or so suits, I have made and done my best to repair all of the former complaints in suit quality.
The suit will be of any design you wish, any color. I do hard to find colors and stretch fabrics as well. All body suits are tailored to fit your body shape and not some baggy pattern out of the store. All zippers are hidden inside of the suit, this includes all zippers including any sph's.
I will work with anyone, via e-mail or messenger, as well as phone and in person if they are close. Video and pictures are available at any stage of construction for your approval before moving on to the next step.
I will do all I can to make you happy. This includes a written and signed legal contract protecting your investment and mine.
The comission price varies depending on whats wanted as well as quality of fur and complexity of project.
A 500.00 U.S. deposit is required up front for materials and is non refundable. I do take monthly payments.
On a last note: I also do fursuit accessories including , leatherwork, chainmaille work, and costumes/clothing for suits. All made from scratch, and made to design.
Please browse here: http://blackfire.timduru.org/ for former suit comissions
And here: http://fursuit.timduru.org/view/FurryCon/FurtherConfusion/FC2006/fursuits/Misc,Diadexxus_FC2006_125.jpg
And here: http://fursuit.timduru.org/view/FurryCon/FurtherConfusion/FC2006/fursuits/Misc,Diadexxus_FC2006_126.jpg
Those 2 past links show my personal suit and most recent work.. And yes I know the jaw looks.. Unfinished. Cause it is.
e-mail me @ fox_73@hotmail.com for any questions at all. |
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| been a while |
[Feb. 11th, 2006|08:30 am] |
well it has been a while since i last updated.
bought a new canon pixma printer. and still have not gotten around to getting paper for it to see if it even works..
and got a new laptop. not the macbook pro i wanted. but a most satisfactory other.
stats:
HP Pavilion model # dv8120ca -AMD Turion 64 processor ML-37 with Power NOW! running about 1.67 Ghz - 2 Ghtz 1MB l2 cache
-2 80 Gig hard drives 5400 rpm. upgradeable
-LightScribe DVD burner 8x combo drive with doubble layer support
-Currently 512m 333mhz DDR memory. upgradeable to 2 gigs
-ATI Radeon express 200M IGP with 128 m shared and dedicated video memory
-Built in 6-1 digital card reader
-a type 1-3 PCMCIA card slot
-Express card/54 card slot
-expantion port for all your audio and video and external device hookups
-svga and monitor out ports.
-remote that slides into the unused PCMCIA slot
-17.0" WXGA+ High Definition Brightveiw Wide screen display
-a 8 cell 63 w/hour battery giving about 2.5 hours watching dvd. or 5 on text only internet
-all wireless 54g 802.11 b/g WLAN
-Oakley laptop bag from the apple store to carry it in.
so i issa happy skunkie. |
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| Personal suit head |
[Jan. 10th, 2006|04:57 pm] |
This is the BlackFire suit head i have had on a back shelf for months. Finally got around to making it. Should be finished by FC.
Please let me know comments/anything i can do to make it better..
Eyes, muzzle/teeth, and eyebrows not added at this time. No markings yet.
( foamed-head-pics ) |
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